DEAR GOD. WHAT DAX DOESN’T KNOW

I’m not really into hip hop, or rap, music. And, based on my limited knowledge of hop hop/rap music, it appears that most rappers or hip hoppers aren’t necessarily into theology. That makes us even. But rappers and hip hoppers are the poets of today and therefore often give voice to the many issues that their generation are grappling with. One of the most popular hip hoppers today is the Canadian poet, rapper and singer, Dax (Daniel Nwosu Jr.), who has just released his latest song, Dear God. In theological terms, this song is an imprecatory-lament song. He told a Hip Hop website

“As I grew older I drifted away [from church] because I think I was never properly explained why I should be there,” he wrote via Instagram“I’ve had this ‘Dear God’ idea for a while but could never finish writing it because I didn’t feel I had enough life experiences,” he adds. “Now at 25 I feel ‘somewhat’ ready.”
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“Dear God” is a list of Dax’s disappointments with religions, church, the Bible, and Jesus. 

I just want to make this clear
I am a believer
But sometimes it gets hard
My name is Dax
(Dear God)

Dear God
There’s a lot of questions that I have about the past (can you hear me?)
And I don’t want hear it from a human you made
So you’re the last person that I’m ever gonna ask
Tell me what’s real, tell me what’s fake
Why is everything about you a debate? (Why?)
What’s the point of love?
Every time I’ve showed it
I was broken and it’s forced me just to only wanna hate
Why’s there only one you but multiple religions? (Why?)
Why does every conversation end in a division? (Why?)
Why does everybody want to tell us how to live
But they won’t listen to the same damn message that they giving? (F**k them)
Tell me how to feel, tell me what’s wrong
I tried to call, pick up the phone (pick up), I’m on my own
Everybody says you coming back
Then man why the hell’s it taking so long?
Why do I hurt? (Why?)
Why is there pain?
Why does everything good always have to change? (Why?)
Why does everybody try to profit off another man’s work
Then destroy it just for monetary gain? (F**k them)
Tell me are you black or are you white?
I don’t even really care I just really want to know what’s right
They been saying one thing but I’ve been looking in the book
And it seems like they’ve been lying for my whole damn life
Tell me where I’m going (where?)
Is it heaven or hell?
I just hope this message greets you well
I had a dream that I was walking with the devil
Don’t remember how it feels but I swear that I remember the smell
Looked me right into my eyes and told me everything I wanted
Could be mine if I gave up and decided to sell
But I said I’d rather die than get mine now I’m here
No fear one man with a story to tell

Dear God, where were you when I needed it?
When I f**ked up and repeated it?
When they set the bar and I exceeded it? (Where were you?)
My life is like a book that they’ve been judging by a cover
But have never took the time to f**king read the s**t (f**k ’em)
I remember telling you my goals and my dreams
But you didn’t even answer so I guess you didn’t believe in it
I remember sitting with a gun to my head trying to ask
You for some help but I guess you didn’t believe in it!
I don’t want religion I need that spirituality
I don’t want a church I need people to call a family
I don’t wanna tell my sins to another sinner just
Because he’s got a robe and he went to some academy
I don’t wanna read it in a book, I wanna hear it from you
Don’t wanna learn it in a school because they’re hiding the truth
Don’t wanna talk about it to another f**king human being
And that’s only reason that I even stepped in this booth

Dear God
How do I take this darkness and turn it into light?
How do believe in a concept where I speak to a man
I’ve never seen with my own two eyes?
How do I know that religion wasn’t made
Just to separate the world and create a whole disguise
Just to keep us in these chains while the rich get richer
And the poor pray to you and perpetuate a lie?
How do I know this ain’t some big joke? (How?)
How can I have faith when there is no hope? (How?)
How the hell does one man have a hundred billion dollars
And we still have people on the street that are broke?
There’s a lot of things I wanna talk about and get off my chest
I can’t sleep ’cause the devil won’t let me rest
I used to know a f**king pastor in a church
And I can still hear the screams of the kids he would f**king molest

Dear God, do you hear me? (Do you hear me?)
I’m supposed to fear you but you ain’t said s**t
So maybe it’s you who actually fears me?
I don’t know the answer I just want to see it clearly
So many lies there’s a thousand different theories
All I want to know is who really made religion
Because I know it wasn’t you but don’t nobody believes me
No more lies, no more death
Bring back King, bring back X
Please dear God let their souls rest
Protect who’s left and watch their steps

Dear God
I don’t want to have to ask you again
I just hope that you know that I’m still a believer
So I’ll end this all by saying, “Amen”
It’s Dax

Source: LyricFind  Songwriters: Daniel Nwosu Jr.  Dear God lyrics © Create Music

 

Dax’s song actually reflects many of the Biblical lament Psalms. A lament Psalm was a ‘complaint Psalm’ where God was often the subject of the complaint. For example, the Psalmist reflects many of the same sentiments that Dax complains to God about-

¶ Why, O LORD, do you stand far away?
Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?
Psalm 10:1

Dax wonders why there are so many religions when there is just one God? That’s a great question. The assumption within his question is a logical one: since all religions wildly disagree on the identity and nature of God, they can not all be true (since the Logical Law of Non-Contradiction kicks in)! He asks how it is then possible to identify which religion is true — as if the answer can never be determined. But it can be. There are ways to determine whether a claim, even if it is a religious claim, is true or not. Religious devotion to God is not a matter of “blind faith” — rather, it’s a matter of reasonable faith. For any claim to be true, especially claims about God and how to find peace with Him, it must

(i) correspond with what we already know to be true (“be verifiable”)

(ii) be consistent, be the best explanation of all the evidence (“coherent”)

(iii) not be contradictory

(iv) be provable (or disprovable, if it is false)

(v) have the weight of corroborating eye-witness testimony or evidence (which is why the unverifiable, contradictory, incoherent, word of one person is not a great foundation for a truth claim, especially a religious truth claim!).

Dax charges God with being silent. But this is not true. Hebrews 1 tells us what we all intuitively know to be true—that God has spoken to mankind in many and varied ways but has especially spoken through His Word and most especially through His Son — and that He still speaks today.

Long ago, at many times and in many ways, God spoke to our fathers by the prophets, but in these last days He has spoken to us by His Son, whom He appointed the heir of all things, through whom also He created the world.
Hebrews 1:1-2

Dax asks God where He was when he was making a mess of his life. I’ve had many people ask me this for the same reason that Dax asks it. I would much prefer to listen more closely to Dax’s heart and hear the ache of that heart before offering a simplistic answer to that painful question. Dax sings that he feels that many people think they know him but that they were really only ever looking at him like a book-cover without taking the time to look inside and ‘read the book’. That’s why I would want to take the time to get to know him first. I am now a pastor in my third church. I began pastoring this church, Legana Christian Church in the year that Dax was born. Two of my four children are older than Dax. I only mention this because one of the few privileges of living into old age is that the questions you ask God about His seeming lack of interest in our lives end up looking quite different after the benefit of a few decades of life going by. Those times when life seemed so unfair and God seemed to be so indifferent, turn out to be (with the benefit of hindsight) the times when God was indeed very near and shepherding us more intently. One of the pain-filled lines in Dax’s song refers to demand that God deals with directly, not through another flawed human. In the Book of Job we hear the beleaguered Job demand the same thing, only to have God answer his complaints by sending Elihu (a human being).

Then Elihu the son of Barachel the Buzite, of the family of Ram, burned with anger. He burned with anger at Job because he justified himself rather than God.
Job 32:2

But maybe Dax would never want to talk to someone like me, a pastor, after the horrible experience with a pastor in a church he used to attend(?) who he describes was sexually molesting children? I can’t blame him. I’m repulsed and appalled by this kind of reprehensible and disgraceful behaviour as well. I don’t know how it could be heard by Dax, and others with similar complaints about these wretched pastors, but I would point out that the vast majority of pastors I know are genuine, caring, and careful people who do not own private jets or live in huge mansions, or drive fancy cars. Instead, they serve a small community of ordinary people in their churches and tend to them as they get go through life’s struggles, get married, have children, suffer loss, and prepare to die. In the small town where I live and pastor, I often think that I am like a goldfish living in a goldfish-bowl. My life is lived transparently. Two of my children were born here and all four of my children grew up here and went to public schools (and Christian schools). When we built our new church building we wanted to make a very clear statement about being transparent and open. Apart from installing security cameras everywhere in an effort to deter any would-be mischief makers, we built our chapel with large windows (not stained glassed ones) so that anybody driving past could look in and see exactly what was happening inside. Added to this, we stream our Sunday morning service live to give people another opportunity to look in and see what we’re about. Added to this we a support women’s shelter, a pregnancy support centre for young unmarried single mums, a homeless shelter, a drug rehabilitation centre, and other agencies that help people in need. All of this over-defensiveness is in response to his charge against greedy religious people who have a hundred billion dollars yet we “still have people on the street that are broke.”

Religion that is pure and undefiled before God the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world.
James 1:27

One of his biggest disappointments with Jesus is that He said He was going to return “soon” — but He hasn’t! One of the hats I wear in addition to my pastoral hat, is the hat I wear as a theologian helping prospective ministers earn their degrees in Bible / Theology / Ministry. My specialty is hermeneutics (how we interpret text) and in particular eschatology (what the Bible teaches about last things). Most of this site is dedicated to writing about issues related to this field of study. Dax expresses an eschatological disappointment in his song, and this is why these comments about Dax’s song are on this site. Dax is not the first one—or the only one—to express such disappointment in Christ’s seeming delay in returning to right all wrongs. His, and others confusion (include great minds such as C.S. Lewis), stems from the conflation of the terms ‘return’ and ‘come’ in such passages as Matthew 24 and Luke 21. The careful reader of these passages will note that the word ‘return’ does not occur (but is wrongly assumed to be so). I wish I had the opportunity to sit down with Dax and listen more closely to his grievances and then perhaps offer him a different perspective about this, especially about what he has been told about the return of Christ. This probably won’t ever happen though. In the meantime, it would have been my plan to present him with a copy of The Most Embarrassing Verse In The Bible and dare suggest that this little book might clear up his disappointment with Jesus.

A song like this strikes me as coming from the heart of someone who is seeking God and the truth. And there’s one thing I know for sure about anyone who, like Dax seems to be doing, seeks God and the truth, and it comes from the mouth of the Lord Jesus Christ and it forms the basis of my prayer for Dax-   

¶ “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.
Matthew 7:7-8

Who knows? Maybe one day Dax might visit Legana and pop on into a Sunday morning service. If he does, I hope that he will hear well-reasoned answers given by a pastor who really, sincerely, and genuinely cares for people and for the cause of Christ. And if he does, I also hope that it might shed some light on why Jesus said that He would build His Church (Matthew 16:18).

Amen.

-Andrew Corbett

10 Comments

  1. UNRULY

    there is a lot of confusion in religion….is the main cause of our problem we face everyday…
    religion have make others think life is not a greatest gift from God but rather heaven……Sometimes religion make others quit their talent …religion is one of the major reason why rascism exist today….everyone think his /she is right…..God never had religion….

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    • Angel

      Coz life on Earth shall soon end. But we ought to work for that life that shan’t end.

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    • Kat

      Honestly I feel like Dax feeling disappointed in said situation. I drifted away to as I got older cause I couldn’t deal with loss. And I didn’t understand. I was a quiet person growing up. I asked God questions at 16.i heard nothing so I gave up. I put God in a zip lock bag cause all I wanted was answers to my questions. I have two kids now and I started believing again due to 2020 end world scare. Which people predicting his coming every year which isn’t supposed to be determined. Some times I do say oh my god out of stress and anger with my daily life and I don’t mean to curse his name at all. I ask for forgiveness. But it still feels like I hear nothing like what am I doing wrong. I never got baptized only Annoited as a teen. And I don’t know why there is a lot of different religions. I also don’t understand why god and Satan has to take this, fight to us on earth.amx I’m trying to stop lying though it’s hard cause of fear of getting in trouble. I don’t know what to do like I’m trying but everything I do feels like, it’s never enough. So yeah I feel like Dax now

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      • Andrew Corbett

        Thank you Kat. If I like, I could try to share some answers to your questions, which other might be asking as well, in some YouTube videos I could create to deal with them. In the meantime, have a look a journey I created on YouTube which has benefited a few people – https://youtu.be/tl_u1G4Vi7M .

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  2. Archibong Felix Favour

    Dax if u can read this pls hear me out God isn’t someone that fails in his words he must surely fulfill it no matter how long it takes people seem to say God isn’t alive becayse he doesn’t grant their heart desires but God allows what he knows that good for you.
    God let’s bad things happen to you in other to test your faith once you are able to hold unto him in your hard times he seems to love you very much them makes things turn around for you even if u die poor on earth but u had Jesus u will be rich in heaven.
    Dax when God said that he is coming soon it doesn’t mean that He will as soon as you think if may take 300 years but it really seems that God will Come because his signs are coming to pass.
    Hope I made sense to you

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    • Daniel

      Religion has drifted away from its primary aim;to save n care for the sheep
      It now about making money n gaining fame prolly thru prayer n famous preachings n not really to reach out to those in need.
      Dax… I really wish u meet with someone who can explain some things in Bible for u

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  3. Sherry Harrison

    Pastor Corbett (I assume is your name), I’m so glad you a heard Dax song and was able to shred some light where the LORD allowed you to.
    Let’s keep Dax in our prayers.
    People who go through a lot I’ve always felt it’s because there is a great purpose for their life and they will have a great testimony for GOD’S glory.
    GOD has given Dax a great gift of expression and communication. Let’s pray for his protection on his journey to do what GOD has created him to do. Pray for him to have discernment and wisdom. Pray for his ears and heart to hear GOD’S voice only and that his spiritual eyes will be open to see GOD’S light in his life. Most of all just pray GOD’S WILL BE DONE.

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    • Andrew Corbett

      Amen!

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    • Bertus

      Where or how to start. First off I think I need to make something clear I am not a christian I am a child of God. Now that may be confusing to allot but please hear me out. I am turning 40 this year and sadly I have to confess that most of that time was spent in anger. I was angry at the unfair world angry at the silly people and most of all angry at God. I lost my little sister to cancer at the age of 16 she was 13. Parents separated a year or two before that. I hated God to be honest. I started writing poetry around the same time and always thought it was my way of getting rid of all the sadness and hatred in my heart. For the next twenty years my life had its ups and downs like life does. Every time things went very wrong I would call out to God and ask him why he couldn’t just end it and get it over with. You see I never really stopped believing that God was real I just didn’t trust him or loved him for that matter. There was a few times I tested him even and looking back now he never and I mean never let me down. I didn’t realize it then but I have had so many signs from God. I went thru 2 wives the last one 3 years ago. After 8 years ago she just left me and yes once again I was going into a very dark place. But what happened then is something that I am still struggling to understand or really comprehend. Being alone like that with all that time on my hands brought me back to my poetry I started going thru everything I wrote from the age of 16. And I realized a truth that rocked me to my core. My poetry that I wrote had two sides to them the one poem would be me asking questions and blaming everything and everyone and then the next poem would answer my questions and comfort my grievances. I did not know what to make of it to be honest. Then came my 3rd wife and she put it all into place for me. If you look at the way my poems are written it seems to be from two very differant people. Now I am not saying I am special or anything like that all I know is that during the darkest times of my life my Lord and Father was there to pull me thru. I say again I am not a christian but I am a child of God. God works in mysterious ways and for every person it will be different. Not one of us is the same so how can we think that He will choose to help us in the same way. I am sorry Pastor I know you may not agree with me and I can respect that. I have never told my story like this and I may never do so again but something here just pulled my heart strings. From one child of God to all the rest to every single believer out there God loves you. May all of you have peace and love in your lives.

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  4. Onyango

    Thank God I read this…

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